Friday, 24 December 2010

Greetings for Xmas

Hello! Here’s a Christmas card to you, from me and Duncan Grant – the one they were all after in the Bloomsbury group (apart from Clive, I suppose). There’s a bit I always liked in his biography, from someone who knew him in the early ’60s, soon after he’d lost Vanessa Bell:
‘He totally formed my way of thinking of what happiness was about. He taught me a rhythm of living – the central fireplace was painting and everything else was around it. Everything went back to painting. You got up, ate, flirted, loved and enjoyed and painted. It was very peaceful…’
You can substitute your chief passion for the painting, if need be, but I think this is a good outlook to have on life. Of course, Duncan’s only severe failure in life may be the parental responsibility he owed to his daughter – out of nothing but embarrassment, it seems – and because of that we should remember to, at the very least, gather other people from the fireplace when we can. If Christmas is your festival, it’s probably a good time for that. Find some time somewhere though.

This is beginning to sound like Jeanette Winterson’s column…

If you still need to get into the Christmas spirit, I have found this round by John Tavener very useful. Or just go with Paul McCartney – whatever does it for you.

I’m looking forward to seeing how Christmas with the Campbells goes this year. It’s always different - and the same - in unexpected ways. I’m still engrossed in the best Brenda novel so far, but I’m taking a heap of books back with me. I made the equivalent of a drunken trolley dash round Dulwich Library yesterday, after me and my Dad’s traditional festive pub crawl. Of these I will undoubtedly manage exactly one half, but you have to dream, don’t you? Curl up in that cave of Christmastime and restore your spirits.

Have a merry winterval, and here’s a Spotify playlist if you have any use for it – some nice Christmas music, and some of my favourite songs of this year (most of which weren’t released this year at all, I’m afraid).

Thursday, 23 December 2010

Shaw couldn't have written it

Hello!

I remember my first panto. It was Snow White, which – in 1986 at the Lewisham Theatre – starred the ever-popular Gary Wilmot (yes, as a dwarf). I’ve Googled in vain to find the name of whoever vamped it up that year as the Wicked Queen.

What I remember clearly, though, is a little shiver down my spine as I saw those dwarfs appear in silhouette coming across their little bridge – I was little enough, and fey enough, that fairy tales were still a serious business with me.

The last one I went to was Snow White too. We were high up in a posh London theatre, and I didn’t get much out of it – but the idea of panto still excites me, with its history and traditions. It’s the closest thing we have in the UK to folk theatre (outside of the occasional Mystery Play).

I like the gender reversals and grotesques, and that it’s those old stories again – common currency, old and venerable enough for them to be disrespected.

It does feel oddly Christmassy to me, the thought of those brightly coloured fairy tale worlds. Is it because, like Christmas itself, it’s a reminder of our less cynical selves – a quick wave to them across time, a try at seeing those twinkling colours without being too sentimental or, just the same, too jaded…?

When Rosie sent me a copy of Are All The Giants Dead? by Mary Norton, it was thoughts like these that made me keep it for December. The back cover describes it as ‘a fairy tale for modern children’ – I seem to talk about those all the time on this blog – but Norton does more here. You have your familiar, never-quite-exhausted story of a child transported into a fantasy world, but the people he meets there are all quite familiar.

Jack-the-Giant-Killer and Jack-of-the-Beanstalk are old men now, running a pub together, telling their stories over mead and bean stew each evening. The ubiquitous wicked fairy is literally too toothless now to gobble a small child – and the princesses, Beauty included, are pink, plump old ladies who play a lot of bridge. ‘We are none of us, as you know, as young as we were,’ says Beauty. They’re all content, but there’s a deep melancholy to the novel – not just the cosy but sombre post-war mood of Norton’s Borrowers series.

I think it’s because these fairy-tale people live in their own world, fluttering their lorgnettes in citadels among the clouds. The protagonist is taken out of our world by a dowdy, Grenfell-ish lady called Mildred: a mysteriously blithe figure, she's a magazine gossip columnist on the fairy-tale world. But there’s something total about an entire world of fairy tale that’s long passed its own happy endings – it would be different, for instance, if Beauty was a woman in a laundrette in our world: unremarkable now, maybe, but in her day…

Norton has such skill with detail and dialogue, though, that these strangely familiar characters ring true: chatty, witty, alive. There’s an odd, quite interesting character, too, who ends up providing a little quest narrative. It asks the question: if you knew you were living the story of the frog prince, would you still be brave enough to kiss that frog? Or would you just ensure you never threw your golden ball so high you lost it?

It’s rare to find children’s books of this kind – strange and sad – and all in all it was over too soon, and would take a re-reading. Thank you, Rosie!

Meanwhile, I’ve been trying to remember the other book where we meet characters from fairy-tale, after their happy endings and slightly washed-up. The only one I can think of is Ten in a Bed by Allan Ahlberg, a nice little children’s book (once read by Victoria Wood on Jackanory). In that one, the fictions rudely gatecrash our world, cosying down in Dinah’s bed till she agrees to tell them a story.

I like the bit where Sleeping Beauty climbs down Dinah’s drainpipe and disappears through the rhododendron bushes at the bottom of the garden, while a bonfire smoulders in an allotment nearby and a vapour trail fades in the sky…



By the way, the amazing Panto website 'It's Behind You' is worth a visit if you're curious or nostalgic. The above gorgeous image came from it, and it was a tough choice! There's a nice quote from the '40s on the front page: "Shaw couldn't have written it - The Oliviers couldn't act it - Gigli couldn't sing it, and Fonteyn couldn't dance it. It's pantomime. It happens - once a year all over Britain. And there's no other art form quite like it..."

Monday, 20 December 2010

A Christmas Story: "The Moving Wallpaper"

Hello there!

As I write this, the snow is sprinkling the streets of East Dulwich again. Jon says it's not snowing anywhere in London but the South East: maybe we'll be snowed in - it'll be just like The Little House in the Big Dark Woods, just without the bear and the smokehouse. I'd love to curl up with my current read, the absolutely wonderful Bride That Time Forgot, and finish writing Christmas cards and wrapping things.

I'll let you know*.

Look at us, barrelling toward the end of the year. Is there even time to reflect on the year that's gone? Why not join me in following the example of Hibernian Homme and Stuck-in-a-Book, by answering this meme only with books you read in 2010:

Describe yourself: Stig of the Dump
How do you feel: Puffin by Design
Describe where you currently live: A Far Cry from Kensington
If you could go anywhere, where would you go: The House in Paris
Your favorite form of transportation: The Busconductor Hines [well, you know what I mean]
Your best friend is: The Box of Delights
You and your friends are: Among the Bohemians
What's the weather like: Horse Crazy
You fear: The Well of Loneliness
What is the best advice you have to give: Hallejuellah Now
Thought for the day: You Might As Well Live
My soul's present condition: Hattie Jacques
How I would like to die: Death in Ecstasy

If you're still looking for kicks, here's my other Christmas story: The Moving Wallpaper. It's not about Doctor Who like the other one, but it is about a boy in Peckham in the sixties (I only noticed this when I was halfway into writing them both). It's not the same boy, as you'll see. And it's a bit of festive adventure with a bit of a debt to John Bellairs' spooky kids books set in 1950s small-town USA.

Just as last year I managed to conquer my fear of the To Be Read pile, and relaxed and enjoyed reading the way I hadn't for years, this year I've started to have some fun with my writing again...

*Update: No such luck

Saturday, 18 December 2010

They met one night in the pale moonlight

Hello!

My friend Luke once had Jane Eyre on a University reading list. He told his Mum quite excitedly, having not read it before – and she replied, with equal enthusiasm, ‘Ooh: reader, I married him!’ To which he replied: "Thanks..."

I’m lucky the most famous line of Rebecca comes on the opening page. There were so many twists and secrets in the novel, and I enjoyed discovering them in the steady pour of Du Maurier’s rich, Turkish coffee prose. Daniel, of the gorgeous Hibernian Homme blog (I’ve not mentioned that before, have I?) described it as a nail-biter. So true! This morning I devoured the last few chapters in bed, as the snows tumbled, snow on snow, in the world outside.

A perfect huddled atmosphere to enter the claustrophobic intimacy of Rebecca's narrator, her delight in solitude and her isolation within it – with us – as ghosts and skeletons and her own daydreams besiege her.

That intimacy is an amazing achievement of Du Maurier’s, because the novel’s weightiest and most crashing secrets dance on it, that slender and subtle affinity of the reader for this shy young fantasist in love. Founded on that sympathy, Du Maurier achieves a lush, romantic fairy tale that’s endlessly complicated by subjectivity. The world outside the narrator’s viewpoint would have a different look to it; Rebecca obviously plays quite a bit with our memories of Jane Eyre, but there’s also an echo of Turn of the Screw.

I really thought, partly at least because of the Comic Strip spoof Consuela, that this was a story about Mrs Danvers – and she is one of the physical manifestations of the madness fuelling the story, so it’s unsurprising the image of her has extended beyond the book, the housekeeper who looks like Dracula’s daughter, a madwoman in the living room, not the attic, and hoovering there – but she’s a far more complex figure than I expected. I have seen a photo of Margaret Rutherford as Danvers, and she looked like an undead Danny le Rue (well, it was stage make-up). I wasn’t prepared for such violent expressions of grief. It was disturbing to sympathise with her. Never mind Rebecca’s Story, I want Whatever Happened to Mrs Danvers, last glimpsed nipping off to the station with a small suitcase on wheels and an empty packet of firelighters.

It was interesting also to see such a prefiguring of The Little Stranger, a novel about set twenty years after this, but telling the same story about large houses haunted by their own anachronistic power, the air of dread in an estate that is run to please an uncertain cultural nostalgia, and to satisfy the dead. Monuments to their own unhomeliness. From the start, the reader is invited to feel a little thrill at the presentiment of that noble country’s pile’s disintegration.

I loved the headiness, the strangeness, which is all there in that opening line, that first chapter exploring the ruined house in a dream. It’s the music of those words that stays with people, I suppose, but also the promise implicit in it – the tinge of melancholy given to even the happiest scenes. It reassures us that a thrashing good story is about to unfold, but one you’ll be invited to re-examine, one that goes beyond reliably tidy conclusion into the ‘real’ ending in mess that we feel to be real, that we feel to be the real experience of life. So Daphne lets us have our cake and eat it.

It was fun, in a time of mass communication, to talk about reading a book that lots of other people have read, to see that line repeated again and again, with ghoulish fondness. I wanted to blog about my favourite opening lines – this is already too long, but here are some favourites:
I write this sitting in the kitchen sink. That is, my feet are in it; the rest of me is on the draining board, which I have padded with our dog's blanket and the tea cosy. I can't say that I am really comfortable, and there is a depressing smell of carbolic soap, but this is the only part of the kitchen where there is any daylight left.
And
He – for there could be no doubt of his sex, though the fashion of the time did something to disguise it – was in the act of slicing at the head of a Moor which swung from the rafters.
This feels like that Victoria Wood ‘Doorbells’ sketch. “And who could forget the classic…”
Marley was dead: to begin with. There was no doubt whatever about that…
Or
She entered the pages of the book as a vagrant steals into an empty house, or a deserted garden.
But I’m looking forward to this:
When he awoke, the room looked different somehow: there was a window where the door used to be. No (how silly could he be) the door was there on the other side of the wardrobe. And there had always been two windows. Hadn’t there?
That’s the opening to Are All The Giants Dead, which I’ve saved up for weeks after Rosie sent it me, just for the run-up to Christmas, i.e. now.

Wednesday, 15 December 2010

A few of my favourite things



Hello!

(Did you like that? I noticed when I put my Christmas story up I went all Miranda Hart, welcoming you in with a wave. I’m keeping it, but only for the Christmas season. Come January, we’ll have a businesslike tone round here. None of this jollity nonsense.)

I’m wintering in a lovely big old house in Cornwall, not five minutes from the sea, which you just catch gleaming at the end of the lawns. It’s a nice place, but I feel rather unprepared – my husband and I married quite impulsively, and I don’t really know what he’s got me into. Plus the housekeeper keeps giving me funny looks.

Yes, I’m reading Rebecca by Daphne Du Maurier. Goodness, she can tell a story. I feel completely absorbed into this beautiful, claustrophobic atmosphere. I saw the film years back, but fell asleep and don’t remember how it ends. It was about time I read the book, and the acclaimed Paul Magrs will be blogging a bit about his MA Novel Reading Course in Spring and I didn’t want to feel left out.

It’s longer than I’d expected, though, so while I’m halfway through I thought I’d recommend a couple of other nice things to spend your time on. I had some stick off this lady, because the last time I recommended her blog I mentioned her name. This, I was told, is ‘a big no-no’. Always happy to preserve a friend’s secret identity for the sake of liberating their powers of self-expression, I went back and amended it.

It wouldn’t do for X (or Godiva, as she calls herself) to be caged up. Hers is a blog of the old school variety, the chronicle of a life. Pepys, I think, is her spiritual ancestor – with a dash of Moll Flanders: bawdy and poetic. I love the way her prose just dances off the screen, even the rude bits, even the stuff about Bernard Matthews. This is my favourite piece of hers so far: it’s about tortoises having sex but is more or less safe for work.

It’s exactly what I want from a blog – the hum, vigour and zing of a voice, immediately recognisable, playing up to their audience a bit, free to indulge in talking about whatever they like.

On a similar note, here’s the blog of another old friend from Brighton (who also wishes to remain anonymous for some reason). When the world was young, I used to blog on Live Journal, and I read Slightly Foxed fervently. I was pleased to find she’s still blogging, only slightly less often. I’m going to get back in touch with her and encourage her to do more. Her last entry was about Christmas decorations – but I recommend this post about Holmes and Watson and forgetful writers.

The last of today’s favourite things is the accompanying video, which I’ve enjoyed several times and this morning found myself singing in the shower, till I was told off. It’s essentially a swirling together of two popstar Kate’s – Bush and Nash. I also like Frisky and Mannish’s music hall cover of the Pussycat Dolls, ‘Beep (Have A Banana)’: “Hold still / Wait a minute / Let me put my tuppence in it” etc.

Back to Manderley now, ta-ra...

Monday, 13 December 2010

A Christmas Story: "The Ever So Helpful Salesman"

Hello! Here's a Christmas Doctor Who story I wrote for the blog. It has the first Doctor Who of all - the white-haired Edwardian grandpa with the mind of an astrophysicist and the life of a questing adventurer - popping up in the life of a schoolboy in the sixties, and giving him a very queer gift: a small blue box.

Don't panic - I'm not going to make a habit of putting fiction up here, but I wanted to put a couple of things up to celebrate the festive season and get cosy in a slightly different way.

To tell the truth, I put this story up online about an hour ago, then had a rush of embarrassment to the head, and deleted the post. I've been thinking about it so long, I hadn't really thought about sharing it, and it's a bloody Doctor Who story - the thing I always tell myself I'll never write again.

Then I did the washing up, in a very bad mood (which is good for burned on porridge actually) and I changed my mind. Maybe it is silly and a bit embarrassing, but it's the season of doing embarrassing things in public. Anyway, it was fun to write, and if you read it, hope you like it. If you don't fancy reading it, don't. If you read it and don't like it, BEGONE!

Edited to Add: Actually, no - it's fine, of course, if you read it and don't like it (fine by me, that is - not much fun for you, but there you go. That's life.)

I urge you to do something embarrassing today. Maybe have a small glass of sherry first. And let me know how it goes.

Friday, 10 December 2010

A Pile of Puffins: The Box of Delights

‘That was our old religion, Master Harker,’ Cole said, nodding towards a wall-painting of men leading bulls and horses. ‘It was nothing like so good as the new, of course, but it was good fun in its day though, because it ended in a feast.’

‘You didn’t eat horses,’ Kay said, ‘did you?’

‘Ah, didn’t we,’ Cole said.
Cole Hawlings is the given name of the Punch and Judy man Kay Harker meets on his way home for the Christmas holidays, the strange man who says (colloquially, surely) that he’s played his show on Christmas Eve ‘since pagan times’, and who just might be the quarry of two shifty, vulpine men on Kay’s train.

In what is probably the most magically suggestive opening chapter of a novel ever, Cole asks Kay to pass a strange message to a strange woman outside a nondescript baker’s, as the snow whirls down. As the chapter closes, Kay himself isn’t sure what message he’s passed or why he’s agreed. The author of The Box of Delights, then-Poet Laureate John Masefield, combines the mystery of religious symbolism with the tense work of military codes and euphemism. Mystic interpretation is mixed up with criminal investigation, with the police no use in either case.

There’s also schoolboy slang, criminal lingo, ancient ciphers, gnomic portents and a very mysterious order of symbologies – even the landscape has secrets to yield (and is itself a real place disguised as a fictional one).

If you want to read the sort of novel that that blissful opening chapter suggests, you’d better read something by Susan Cooper – whose Dark is Rising sequence take the premise of The Box of Delights and spin it into something truly epic – or even CS Lewis. In fact, from Alan Garner to TH White via Joan Aiken, there aren’t many great children’s authors who don’t talk about Masefield. (Sword in the Stone was published just four years after The Box, but White says somewhere that he loved Kay Harker’s first adventure, The Midnight Folk, ‘this side idolatory.’)

I don’t doubt that Lewis read The Box of Delights, just because what comes with it is the license to write fantasies that are disordered, self-indulgent, rich with the imagery of a dream. The lamp-post in the snow, like the phoenix in the pub fire, has the surreal vibrancy of a dream.

Because Masefield doesn’t restrain himself to a formal, magical adventure. Kay isn’t just up against an evil wizard with a lust for power – the wicked Abner Brown is a gang boss whose men travel round Herefordshire in flying taxis, abducting members of the clergy. There are pistols as well as demons, and even demons shaped like aeroplanes. It’s a lurid Christmas extravaganza with something for everybody, and Abner is a true pantomime villain, who sometimes stops to speechify to himself about how bad he is: ‘Think what I will do to the tourist industry. Thousands will come to Tatchester to see the scene of the outrages … tea-rooms will enlarge their premises!’

And Kay has quite an easy time of things, compared to Aiken’s or Cooper’s protagonists – Abner’s barely aware he exists for most of the book, and the big joke of the novel is that he kidnaps almost every other character but him. Masefield’s hero has time to eat ‘robber’s tea’, go to parties and sail toy boats. The whole thing is like a catalogue of things to please a young reader of 1935 – it would be interesting to know more about how Masefield came to write it. It’s dedicated to his wife – and when it was published, even his youngest child was twenty five years old. Masefield himself had been Poet Laureate for five years – maybe it was a welling up of things, in response to worthy commissions and deathly meetings.

It really is a book about delight, and obscure delight too. As well as earthly pleasures, Kay is set free in worlds of mystic joy. He runs through forests with Herne the Hunter, leaps through the ocean on the back of a dolphin, awakens the long-enspelled Very Good People and receives their benediction. This is the third time I’ve read the novel in less than a decade, and it still leaves me confused. I don’t really understand what the villains are trying to do, or how Kay rescues who he rescues where greater powers haven’t. I don’t understand what those powers mean, and what they want of him – ‘the Wolves are Running’, but are they only Abner’s gangs? Their battle against the mysterious trinity seems to run sideways through history. Masefield’s conception of history – and in the process, religion itself – feels like a bizarre resolution of contradictory concepts in a swelling of moral feeling: charity, love, humility…

And always that strange weightlessness of being beyond history, which is very Christmassy. At the same time, there is a quite pointed conversation about the madness of political dictators, between Kay and a man who once marched with Alexander the Great.

The Puffin edition was published thirty years into Masefield’s tenure as Poet Laureate, thirty years into the book’s life (it seems to have had an early start in memorable adaptations – several times on the wireless during the war and in the fifties). Kaye Webb describes it as ‘a special book, particularly suited to imaginative readers with inquiring minds’. She did so much for children’s publishing, just in those perfectly worded recommendations.

I can remember sitting on the carpet in our classroom and listening to it being read. It was in the Puffin edition, and we had it from Mr Llewellyn, a tall Welshman who looked a bit like a stretched out Nick Hewer from The Apprentice. I thought that opening chapter was the most amazing thing I’d ever heard – so much was suggested, so much hung in the air, menace and magic in the same swirl of snow. I found a reprint in a charity shop and started reading along with Mr Llewellyn, which was very confusing because the reprint was heavily abridged. Thanks for nothing, Lions! I wonder who it was, at what meeting, who ordered those scenes to be cut out? I wonder what the difference was, when the text was left intact by Puffin, three decades after the original publication?

I’d like to know what happened to Mr Llewellyn – I remember he also read the first chapters of Doctor Who and the Green Death to us, and I got up the courage to ask him who the author was, and never did anything about it for years. We obviously had tastes in common!

This has been an especially long blog, but it was for The Box of Delights, after all. I don’t think I’ve done it justice – it’s surreal and beautiful and eerie and lovely. The Guardian blogged about it just the other day, among their Christmas reads – and the lovely Jon took this photo of the book for me. Look at that cover – a perfect combination of 60s design and the original illustrations…

Thursday, 9 December 2010

Judges of good character - plot twist - consistency of theme - narrative drive... etc.


It’s only been a week since Christopher Fowler’s Paperboy was named the winner of the inaugural Green Carnation Prize 2010, yet ‘the green team’ have already started making plans so the prize is even bigger and better next year. First on the agenda is the judging panel for 2011 which we can confirm includes some familiar faces and some new ones too…
The Judging Panel 2011

Simon Savidge, Chair of the Judges 2011
Simon was born in the Peak District in 1982. He is London and Books Editor of Bent Magazine. After several years lost in the wilderness of not reading he is now a fully reformed book lover and writes the book blog ‘Savidge Reads’. He splits his time between Manchester and London which means lots of space for lots of shelves overflowing with books. He is thrilled to be chairing the award in its second year “I think it’s a fantastic mix of judges who all have one thing in common – a complete love and passion for books of all varieties.”
Stella Duffy
Stella Duffy has written twelve novels, forty short stories, and eight plays. Her latest novel, Theodora, was published by Virago in June 2010. The Room of Lost Things and State of Happiness were both longlisted for the Orange Prize. The Room of Lost Things won Stonewall Writer of the Year 2008, Theodora won Stonewall Writer of the Year in 2010. She has written forty short stories, including several for BBC Radio 4, and won the 2002 CWA Short Story Dagger for Martha Grace. Her first crime novel, Calendar Girl, was voted 5= of the top 100 novels in the international Big Gay Read. You can find her blog here.

Paul Magrs
Paul Magrs was born in the North East of England in 1969. His first novel, ‘Marked For Life’ was published by Chatto and Windus in 1995. His most recent novels are 'Enter Wildthyme' (February 2011, Snowbooks) and '666 Charing Cross Road' (October 2011, Headline.) He is also the author of the 'Brenda and Effie Mysteries' series of novels published by Headline. He taught the MA in Creative Writing at UEA for seven years, and then did the same at MMU in Manchester, where he lives with his partner, Jeremy. You can visit his blog here.
Michelle Pauli
Michelle Pauli is a journalist and author. She is deputy editor of guardian.co.uk/books, the Guardian's literary website, has written a weekly column about literary blogs for the paper's Saturday Review and is currently working on a new online books project for guardian.co.uk. She has previously worked for the Times and the Independent and has written for a number of publications. You can find her website here and follow her on twitter here
...and me!
Well, as the song goes, if you don't know me by now...


About the Prize

Earlier this year a new literary prize was born for works of fiction and memoirs by gay men was introduced… The Green Carnation Prize was born in 2010 when it was literary award season again and long lists were getting bandied about like crazy. And we thought – wouldn’t it be fun and great to do something a bit different? It’s probably the first prize of its kind in the UK and one we hope will go from strength to strength in future years.

2011 already looks set to get off to a flying start for the prize’s second year with the announcement of the new judging panel.

Further Information

Submissions for the next Green Carnation will be open from January 1st 2011. Publishers will be notified of the submission guidelines within the next week as well as the guidelines being published on the website. The longlist will be announced in the Autumn of 2011, dates TBC. You can visit the website here for any additional information and further updates as they are announced.

Contact Information

For further information, images or any other enquiries please email greencarnationprize@gmail.com

Tuesday, 7 December 2010

A thousand wild antics

Anybody lucky enough to have seen my moustache in recent months will have guessed that beneath this be-cardiganed, office admin exterior, beats the heart of a wayward Bohemian. Since I was a student, it’s been my principle excuse for looking – well, like a student.


And who wouldn’t want to live for beauty – to give their time entirely to art, to pleasure, to freedom of expression – to drinking in strange bars at strange hours with strange people, robed in a red silk dressing gown, before heading to a costume party, dancing and discussing the universe till dawn, when we board our caravan and set off on the open road…?

What’s life for but dreaming? But Virginia Nicholson's Amongst the Bohemians is about the dreamers who gave everything to live their ideals, the sort of people (as a manifesto of sorts declares) ‘who enjoy life just as much, or even more, on discovering they do not have immortal souls, who are proud and not distressed to know that they are of the earth earthly ...’

In the process, argues Nicholson, they changed British society, mainly for the better. Emancipation of woman and gay-boy, freedom to go without a hat, to be nice to your children, liberation from rice pudding and spam and ridiculous social etiquette and knick-knacks. Aspect by aspect, the various rebellions of these wild, arty types are considered: attitudes to money, dress, housework. It gives a nice stable structure to an otherwise sparkling, bubbling, unrestricted book.

They had a hard time having such a good time and giving us better times, though. These ‘experiments in living’ frequently exploded in their young, beautiful, bobbed or bearded faces. Loving in circles (or complicated algebraic equations) doesn’t seem to have done anyone much good. Giving away whatever money you get, often leaves you deliriously hungry and munched by lice.

It’s hard to feel too bad about, essentially, a moneyed class playing at being penniless or coping without a servant – but they’re not as enviable as I’d thought, either. I didn’t pity Katherine Mansfield – who, turning from the victory of preparing a roast by herself, was there hours later trying to scrub grease off the roasting tin with cold water, sobbing: ‘I want lights, music, people!’ – but I empathised. If there’s a knack to dividing yourself equally between the muse and the hovering, I haven’t got it yet – as my lovely boyfriend will tell you.

The Bohemians were a mass of contradictions – pacifists and fist-fighters, trying to get ‘back to the beautiful brown soil’ and desperate for sensation, opulence, drama – and far from being united by their hopes and dreams, it’s simpler to say they were all expressing the hysteria of a Victorian childhood. After the death of the Queen, there was a riot of colour, nonsense, orgasms. Among the Bohemians gives a great deal of pleasure in going into the detail of each liberation, but by dividing off these sections, the contradiction remains unidentified.

And we don’t hear much about the art these people made, apart from Carrington and Vanessa Bell. Admittedly, Augustus John’s work has always been a disappointment to me – so maybe his life on the road, his galloping sexual appetite, his devil-may-care attitude to bringing up his children are all more interesting subjects – but it does rob a lot of the others of their prime motivation. And there’s a lot more to say about Duncan Grant – my favourite Bohemian – than we have here.

But maybe that’s inevitable. The book’s already brimming over with gossip and good stories, all extremely well told. The various figures of the circle come to life, despite the need for the book to keep moving, keep digressing. Nicholson doesn’t make claims to be a historian, and this is a perfect read for winter, full of colour and dance and romance. It’s warning in some ways, but inspiring in others. I like the line from Woolf about eating well: ‘The lamp of the spine doesn’t light on beef and prunes.’

I’m back to making a long commute into work. In the heyday of this blog, I was travelling to and from the office for an hour or more each day, on the 12 bus (nicknamed the Plague Wagon since I discovered a couple of mini cockroaches sharing the journey one day). I’ve tried to speed up my journey, but it’s cut into my reading time – so I’m back on the bendy bus.

Ah, I remember when it was a tottering old Routemaster, the yellow and brown seat-covers redolent of 1950s escapades, the open platform at the rear so leapable, so gorgeous to stand at and watch the world unspool from. That bus won’t come again, but there I am, wedged up against the engine (for fear of the bugs) aboard its new incarnation. And my next read is The Box of Delights by John Masefield…

Friday, 3 December 2010

A box of delight

Look at this ridiculous photo. I asked my sister to snap me in the snow, to send my pal Rosie and show her you don't have to live in North Wales to be ankle-deep in white stuff. "Take one of me reading for my blog!" I yelped at her, and she was obviously too cold to say no. You can see my little hat, and Among the Bohemians by Virginia Nicholson, my current read. But this photo is really to illustrate Major Event of the Week III.
As Kay was coming home for the Christmas holidays, after his first term at school, the train stopped at Musborough Junction...
Major Event of the Week I was the announcement of the winner of the Green Carnation Prize for Great Gay Writing 2010. Hooray for Christopher Fowler, three cheers (each) for all the Shortlisted authors, and thanks to them for their involvement in our blog and our night at Gay's The Word. I'm knackered - and delighted to see the Prize mentioned in the Guardian!
Snow lay piled on the dark road across Willoughby Wold, but from dawn men had been clearing it with brooms and shovels. There were hundreds of them at work, wrapped in sacking because of the bitter cold, and keeping together in groups for fear of the wolves, grown savage and reckless from hunger...
Major Event of the Week II was the beginning of Rosie's blog, A Camera's Country View. She's been sharing her photos through Flickr for longer than I've been doing A Pile of Leaves but now she's getting into blogging, partly because I wanted her to. I like the fact that in their blog a person can really revel in their private passions, sharing their knowledge, their geekery even, in a curiously intimate way.

In winter, the colour in her photos is unexpectedly uplifting, and many of them are revelatory about the detail of her subject. But she also knows a lot about the lives and secrets of these things (she's deep in a forestry PhD as we speak). I remember on an office away day, back when we worked together, hiking through round Caernarfon, when she explained to me the different bands of colour on a hill across the valley. I hope her blog has a long, multicoloured, rambling life...
With features proud and fine
he stood there tall and straight
a King at Christmas time
and great merriment.
And Major Event of the Week III was the bringing down from the loft, with some ceremony and some huffing and some catching of my cardy on the ladder, of The Christmas Box.

I put together the Christmas Box in January last year - well, you have to put your Christmas decorations away somewhere safe anyway, so why not also tidy away those Christmas reads, books that stand and wait all year for that particular atmosphere, smoky, sticky, sad, lovely, looking forward, looking back, looking through many strange shadows of the past, reads to cuddle up with, reads to read aloud.

Here it is, frozen from its suspended animation in the loft above our heads. There's the furry advent calendar, the Icicle Lights (120 Bulbs, 'For use as decoration only'), the wooden snowman thing, the unused charity Christmas cards, the holly wrapping paper.

And The Box of Delights, and Sir Gawain and the Green Knight, The Giant Under the Snow, and The Wolves of Willoughby Chase. And the Stories and Tales of Hans Christian Andersen, and The Mysteries of Tony Harrison, and The Story of Peter Pan Retold from the Fairy Play by Sir J.M. Barrie by Daniel O'Connor. Lying flat in the Christmas Box are The Mole's Family Christmas by Russell Hoban, Dylan Thomas' A Child's Christmas in Wales, and two Christmas Story Teller magazines ('Including... The Nativity read by Liza Goddard') published by Marshall Cavendish in the early 80s, and bought for me by my Mum's Mum, and treasured since.

Its value is somewhat ineffable, but this is the treasure, this chilly cardboard box of stuff: the Christmas Box - a sign of advent, of returns to memory, and peace. December will be magic again, of course...

Have a lovely weekend everybody!